euphoric-lullabies

I'd love to get back in touch with my old friends.. I'd love to hear from all of you, I know I've been such a flake, disappearing.. if any of you are still around, please.. just note me or comment and let me know, so we can get back in touch.. I'd really love to know how all your lives have turned out.. I have to go to work now, but still, I'd love to hear back.. Love and Cyanide, ~Spooky

Things start out great, but they always end messy and in a tragic manner. So what do I do now that you aren't here with me? It's ok... Love is a fickle fucking thing.

It's funny where the soul goes, when there's nothing left in you. I get on here every night when I get off work and I just stare.  I don't even know what to put here anymore.  I'm completely drained.  No one to talk to on here anymore, everyone else apparently has the same thing going on, or that I just have to start all over again, from scratch, and try to realize what I've become. What has happened to me in two years?  That I can't write, I can't draw, I can't do anything artistically anymore.  Is it that the real world has finally crashed down around me, and I realize that it's all just silly games? I hope not.  I need some good karma.

This block in my head can keep me from expressing myself the way I need to, but it doesn't stop me from having horrendous dreams each night. I've lost a lot of myself these last two years, and I'm struggling to get back to that comfy place in my head, whether it's lack of medication, or the crashing waves of drama, I'm really trying to do what is necessary to get my shit together. The fact that I really haven't had a day off in the last two weeks, keeps me even more caught up in not doing shit for myself. I just need to be alone for a while.

Happy Earth Day Fotha Muckas!!!!! :faint: